I keep wanting to write something about this, but I haven’t been sure where to start. So I guess I’ll just give it a go.

We had to have our family dog put to sleep this past Sunday. To say that I’m devastated is an understatement. I’ve never not had a dog, but it’s not that which is so weird, it’s that my best friend is gone. Hercules was 13, which is pretty old for a big dog, so we definitely knew that it was only a matter of time. But as much as you think you’re preparing yourself for something like this, you’ll never be prepared. Our house is so empty. I cooked dinner tonight and not having him glued to my side in the kitchen was horrible. I can only say so much about this before completely losing it (…for about the hundredth time), so some prayers and thoughts for my family would be great. Everyone says you have good days and bad days when grieving, but so far I’ve only had bad days. I miss my dog. Horribly. The list of things I’d do for just one more hour with him is endless. Do me a favor, hug your dog everyday. Don’t get annoyed or angry with your dog because no matter what they love you unconditionally and it’s by far one of God’s greatest gifts our there. Cherish everyday and every moment with your dog.


In some more positive news, I’m a formal job offer (which I will have by the end of next week) away from a new job! I’ve been told that the Authorization to Hire forms are being processed now so that’s gotta be a fantastic sign right! I guess it’s a little bit of light on the pretty dark days I’ve been dealing with this week.

I hope everyone is surviving Christmas shopping and holiday preparation. I’m looking to get this blog back in full swing after the holidays. As you can imagine, motivation is hard to find as of lately.


It’s not about forcing happiness, it’s about not letting the sadness win.